In her e book Counting the Price, Jill Duggar particulars a struggle along with her father, Jim Bob Duggar, the place she referred to as him out for treating her “worse” than her “pedophile brother” Josh Duggar.
Within the excerpt printed by Folks on September 9, Jill, 32, recounted a gathering she and her husband, Derick Dillard, had with Jim Bob, 58, and her mom, Michelle Duggar. The household used a mediator throughout their sit-down, however issues nonetheless acquired very heated.
Jill was in tears as she instructed her father, “You suppose I’m some form of horrible particular person simply because I put on pants and have a nostril ring … I’m evolving and altering … You deal with me like I’m a prodigal who’s turned her again on you. You deal with me worse than you deal with my pedophile brother.”
Earlier than issues took a flip, the 19 Children and Counting alum instructed her mother and father she needed “to restore household relationships very quickly” and “have a superb dialogue” about “hurtful issues” that occurred between them. Nevertheless, Jim Bob was very offended along with his daughter.
“He was sitting very nonetheless, lips tight, eyes locked in a scowl that had been sculpted out of rock,” she wrote about her father’s expression as he introduced up a letter Jill and Derick despatched, which Michelle, 56, referred to as “essentially the most disrespectful factor I’ve ever learn.”
“I knew she was proper, that she was talking the reality. I didn’t know precisely how I’d tousled, however I knew that I had,” Jill wrote in e book, which publishes on September 12. “I’d harm her and Pops, and that was by no means my intention.”
Jim Bob then modified the topic and demanded an apology for a textual content message he acquired from Jill that referred to as him verbally abusive.
“I used to be nervous now,” Jill wrote. “I remembered the message, remembered sending it within the hope that it’d wake Pops as much as how unhealthy I felt issues had gotten, to perhaps make him give us a bit house and let issues settle down. I’d written about not eager to be verbally abused, which was precisely how I’d felt on the time. I’d felt it in El Salvador as effectively. I wasn’t certain that I might apologize for that. I glanced at Derick as I remained speechless.”
In response to Jill and Derick’s silence, Jim Bob allegedly stormed throughout the room in an “act of aggression.”
“He towered over me, his complete physique fueled with anger. My face flushed pink. My eyes crammed with tears,” Jill recalled. “Then there was an extended, terrible silence that I needed to fill however simply couldn’t but. Derick’s hand was shaking in mine, and I squeezed as arduous as I ever had, determined for him to carry his tongue.”
Jim Bob insisted her bodily response in that second was as a result of she felt “responsible” for what had occurred between them.
“Pops’ voice was so loud in my ears. His phrases have been like blows,” Jill wrote, noting that Michelle had additionally started to cry. “I instinctively tried to guard myself and block him out. I curled up on my seat, looking for security in some form of fetal place.”
Issues got here to a head when Jill referred to as out her father for treating her “worse” than her brother Josh, 35, who molested her and a number of other of their siblings when he was youthful. The disgraced actuality TV star is at the moment in jail on fees of downloading and possessing photographs of kid intercourse abuse.
Jim Bob and Michelle responded to Jill’s claims in a press release to Folks. “We love all of our youngsters very a lot. As with every household, few issues are extra painful than conflicts or issues amongst these you’re keen on. … We don’t imagine the easiest way to resolve conflicts, facilitate forgiveness and reconciliation, or to speak by difficulties is thru the media or in a public discussion board so we won’t remark.”